She wanted him so bad. She had missed him so much over the years. But she wasn't about to get her feelings mixed up again. She couldn't let herself feel so much for him and he wasn't able to do the same for her. It wasn't that he wouldn't.....he just couldn't. Life can be so complicated. But here he was holding her, kissing her, telling her how he felt and all she could do was smile and not say anything. She was too afraid to say anything because what if he really didn't mean it. What if it was just the alcohol talking. What if he was going to regret it the next day.
All she did know was that looking at him smile made her melt. Feeling his lips on hers felt like fire was consuming her. The touch of his hands sent chills throughout her body. She had missed him more than even she had realized. The words I love you came from his mouth and as much as she wanted to say them back, her head was screaming no! She did love him. She had loved him. No matter what happened in the past few years, she couldn't stay mad or upset with him. She loved his spirit, his soul....she loved him.
Laying in his arms it felt like this is where she was suppose to be. Like 2 pieces of a puzzle that fit perfectly in a puzzle that they didn't belong to. Her head laid on his shoulder, listening to him breathe as he dozed off. She stared at his face thinking that it was a dream and not wanting to wake up if it was one. She laid there thinking this was so wonderful. And then reality started setting in. In a few hours, he would be gone. On his way back home. She would once again wonder when she would see him again. Wondering when he would call. Wondering when she would feel his touch. And this is why she couldn't let herself fall for him again.
